Blessed beyond imagination.....

My dear sweet Jesus-My Bridegroom, has poured out His adoring love and blessings all over me and bathed me in the lavishness of His righteousness. I can not fully express to Him with accurate words just how much He has done for me-how much I love Him because He first loved me. So I am telling Him with the gaze of my eyes towards His beautiful face. I am telling Him with my tears of joy which I gladly offer to Him. And I am telling Him with the sunrise of my smile.


Thank you Jesus...my sweet Jesus...my Prince.

I am also thanking God for the dear saints who have been praying for me.....who have stood in the gap for me, knees probably calloused, as they have fought for me.....Thank you!!! I love you with all of my heart!!!

For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.

And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. ~Ephesians 3:14-21

God gave me the job at Harvard-what's more is I believe I was hand-picked for it. There have been so many times in my life that I've gotten frustrated about not knowing what God was doing, but this is one of those times that I'm actually excited about not knowing! Crazy!

I am excited about the works of His hands and how He will unfold the plans that He has for my life right before my very eyes as I wait expectantly and am captivated by His every move.

Happiness-Life is Good!

I am just so peaceful, happy and content with my life right now. I love being here in MA. Every night I go to bed with complete ease and wake up each morning so peaceful.

"I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety." -Psalm 4:8

Actually most mornings I wake up thanking God for this. I thank him a lot for my bed.....well actually it's only partly my bed. I only have a mattress but one of my cousin's friends (who stayed with her before I moved in) left their box spring and mattress here until they can get it. The bed frame is missing a wheel so I can't use it......so I have two mattresses on top of the box spring which is on the floor and it is sooooooo comfortable! I never want to get out of bed! I will be sad when they need their bed back because it has brought me much relief from my lower back pain on my left side. I don't think I've woken up with back pain since I've slept in that bed. Thank you God! I have also not suffered from insomnia since I've been here either. Over the past 2 years I have had a lot of trouble falling asleep or staying asleep, but not anymore. Praise God!

I know that it is from "The peace of God, which transcends all understanding, that guards my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus." -Philippians 4:7

There is so much peace in being in and doing God's will......in obeying him when he asks you to do something-even if it doesn't always seem to make sense to you. It's funny, just this evening someone asked me why I moved (back) here from Florida? My response was, "God." It was an interesting 30 seconds or so after that as they kind of laughed and thought I was joking and said, "God told you to move here?!" Again I said yes and assured them that I wasn't joking.....my cousins smiled and laughed in agreement with me. God is so wild-I love it! I know God called me here and backed his Words up with a Promise. He made this promise to Jacob after Jacob stole his brother Esau's blessing and then fled to Paddan-Aram. The Lord led me to this passage in a very creative way back in April '06 and I have believed him and clung to his Promise for Me.....

“I am the Lord, the God of your grandfather Abraham, and the God of your father, Isaac. The ground you are lying on belongs to you. I am giving it to you and your descendants. Your descendants will be as numerous as the dust of the earth! They will spread out in all directions—to the west and the east, to the north and the south. And all the families of the earth will be blessed through you and your descendants. What’s more, I am with you, and I will protect you wherever you go. One day I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have finished giving you everything I have promised you.” -Genesis 28:13-15

In my reading today I came across another passage of scripture that leapt off of the page and into my heart. I have replaced Abraham's name with my own as I felt the Lord was saying my name. I believe God has called me out by name and set me apart for this:

"And the Lord said, Shall I hide from Sarha [My friend and servant] what I am going to do, Since Sarha shall surely become a great and mighty nation, and all the nations of the earth shall be blessed through her and shall bless themselves by her? For I have known (chosen, acknowledged) her [as My own], so that she may teach and command her children and the sons of her house after her to keep the way of the Lord and to do what is just and righteous, so that the Lord may bring Sarha what He has promised her." -Genesis 18:17-19 (Amplified Bible)

I love God so much. He is dear, sweet, thoughtful and faithful. I am in such a good place in my life. I am believing Him for a new job at Harvard-it's looking very good, they are on the last process-a background check. I have been attending a Messianic congregation which I have come to really enjoy. I am learning so much of the Word of God there. It has opened me up in many ways.....helping to free me up in worship. They have started a dance group that teaches traditional Jewish dances which they do during praise & worship. I have always wanted to dance during worship but always felt way too bound up and self-conscious to be free enough to dance. I now feel that I have a significant desire to worship and celebrate God through dance and am really thinking about joining the group. This is huge for me. I am a fun person, don't get me wrong, but I am also way uptight when it comes to things like this....especially when it involves being in public view.

I've also started to open up to other things and really enjoy them. These things may seem trivial to some people but I know myself very well and these things are milestones for me:

1. Ate Indian Cuisine for the 1st time and loved it.
2. Bought AND read an almost 500 page book with my cousin called "Redeeming Love", based on the book of Hosea from which my "life verse" (Hosea 2:19-20) comes from. I encourage everyone to read this book. It is absolutely amazing! I wish I had tons of money so I could buy the book and give it to the whole world. God's redemptive love is mighty, powerful and captivating!
3. Like my cousin's dog & cat to the point where I actually pet, hold and cuddle with them!
4. Learning & playing board games that require thinking and strategy. I have always been more of a Phase 10, Skip Bo, Uno kind of girl so this was a stretch for me. I now like the board games so much that I've gone to bed & woken up thinking about them and asked my cousins and their friends if they want to play more games.
5. Changed my daily food intake to pretty much an all natural and organic diet. Drinking more water. Only had soda once over the course of a month. Cut out fast food. Drinking more tea. On a whole I'm eating healthier and taking better care of my body. I've lost 3 pounds since the start of the year! :-)
6. Asked a lady at church if she'd like some company when I noticed we were both sitting by ourselves in two different rows of seats.....so I went and sat with her.
7. Voluntarily introduced myself to one of my cousin's friends without feeling shy or uncomfortable.
8. Not feeling sad at all about being away from my family when they're going through so much and instead trusting God and remaining joyful in all circumstances.
9. For the most part looking forward to learning & taking the T (subway).
10. Openness to getting out and exploring my new surroundings.
11. Didn't freak out when going out in public places or meeting new people without having done my hair & make-up and dressed "bummy"......and felt beautiful.
12. Being confident, believing in myself and whole-heartedly believing God without doubts, fears or reservations.

I look forward to all the ways the Lord is going to open my heart up to new things. He is freeing me more and more each and every day.

To Sarha who had believed him, Jesus said, "If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciple. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." -John 8:31-32

Personality Test

I don't really ever take little online tests or surveys but I decided to do this one just for fun. I must say it is actually pretty accurate about my personality. If you get bored or curious sometime you should take it too.

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion.You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness.You're generally good at balancing work and play.When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness.You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism.You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium.You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

Five Factor Personality Test

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